Funny Twin Things

Tuesday 22nd February

One of my closest friends is an identical twin. It must be getting on for two years ago after the birth of her son. We were having a drink and she stopped and turned and just looked at me all of a sudden. "You're going to have twins," she exclaimed, "I just felt it."

Then there's my niece. I got married last year. The tin chapel I was wanting my ceremony at wasn't registered for marriages so we married on the Wednesday at my parish church in a small ceremony with close family and friends. On the Saturday we had a second wedding ceremony with all my family and friends. My niece was sitting next to me over Christmas just gone and she turned and looked at me and said "Are you going to have two babies because you had two weddings."

Then of course there was the "knowing" before we knew, like I have already said. Not because of anything other than a feeling. I had googled it and several sites said it was normal to think you were having twins, which made me kind of rationalise it. But it wasn't just me that thought so, it was your Dad as well. He had even written "I want twins" in the Valentines card before he had found out.

Sometimes I want everything to be clear, solid, to grasp it and see it. Yet the essence of living, that which allows us to dream and hope and believe is beyond reason and logic. There is something inexplicably beautiful and mysteriously magical happening inside of me and I need to remember that. I don't need all the answers. The most beautiful things in life are born from mystery.