First Baby Pictures

Tuesday 22nd March

I turn up at the EPC and the waiting room is empty. Two nurses sit around gossiping barely and dunking biscuits in their tea.

A brisk middle aged consultant calls me in to the room and I slip onto the bed. Despite drinking twice the recommended amount of water my bladder appears empty and so we resort to the vaginal scan. Just minutes in and she happily announces both are in there wiggling about. Your Dad has tears in his eyes. She turns the screen towards me and one at a time she shows me you both. Both of you are wiggling and both your hearts are beating proudly.

She tells me the idea that you could have been conceived at different times isn't possible but that it may just be that you are structurally different. "Like Laurel and Hardy" she says. One of you is showing up at 10 weeks and 5 days and the other at 9 weeks and 2 days. That seems pretty consistent growth to me.

She starts going into all the "ifs" and "buts" and talks about chromosomal abnormalities being like having an incomplete encyclopaedia. I have tuned out.

I leave light as a feather clinging on to my first baby pictures of you and you are most definitely both shaped like babies now with heads and little feet and hands. Happy in my heart.