Nausea

Thursday 3rd March

Nausea has begun to creep in, especially after I have eaten. It's not overwhelming but it is unpleasant. It's like travel sickness not an urge to vomit more of an undercurrent feeling. In the beginning I was thinking very logically about what you needed and nourishing you with nutrition rather than considering what I wanted. What I wanted seemed like a fickle aside to what you needed. As the sickness has been sneaking in those best choices have been harder to make. My thoughts wander towards things I would never normally eat like thick sliced white bread and spotted dick and custard - who even eats spotted dick anymore? So far I have managed to resist the urge and have tried to satisfy my unfamiliar sweet tooth with Pink Lady apples and other sweet fruit. But it's getting harder.

I know in moderation these things would probably be perfectly fine but moderation is not my middle name. Far from it. And I am worried about opening those barn gates and the horse bolting.

This stems most greatly from the anxiety about the weight gain that has already begun. The internet tells me this is normal and weight gain in the first trimester is one of the signs of twin pregnancy. I know it is a necessary part of pregnancy and to an even greater extent with a twin pregnancy. 35-45 pounds they say is normal as opposed to the more manageable average of 22-28 in a singleton pregnancy.

I don't want to sound shallow but it frightens me, not just from a vain view point but also from a physical and practical view point. How can I possibly carry that extra weight?