Thursday 10th March
It's coming to the end of the financial year and so I am busy beyond belief. As always the busier I am the more curve balls I seem to be sent making what is already a challenging schedule into an unachievable and unmanageable one. It's like playing whack'a'mole. Usually this sends me into a spin. But of late I have been strangely placated in such scenarios. It's as if I can see the stress I ought to be feeling but it can't quite reach me. It stops a foot or so short of me. Like there's a force field around me stopping anything much more than mild irritation from reaching me.
I feel like I have taken several strong sedatives pretty much a hundred percent of the time. My mind, which usually races at speed doesn't manage much more than a slovenly stroll. And where I would normally rely on caffeine to medicate me out of such a state it would seem I am pretty much fixed here for the time being. There's nothing I can do to fight it. Even if there was I have no fight in me to fight it with.
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